Hold Onto What Matters…

When Its Unclear: Wooly Mastadon

In the past few weeks it has been a roller-coaster. I don’t like putting life updates here, this place is for the purpose of sharing projects, creativity, inspiration. Yet sometimes life just has to come to the forefront, needs to be seen. No matter how much you try to hide what is happening it shines through. It shines through here and elsewhere in my silence. Now, there have been some really good moments but there have been a lot of really hard moments too. It was to the point that all I wanted to do was run and hide from everything. Thankfully I have a really amazing person in my life who helped me get out of that but sometimes things hit you hard. One thing that I have shared on and off here was my Mom’s battle and defeat of cancer. Two months ago my family learned that that cancer had returned, and with a vengeance. She’s getting treatment and doctors seem pretty positive but it hit everyone hard, when something terrible was over…at least you thought it was, only to come back.

This was just one example of the downs that have hit these past few months. I lost track of what mattered and let things get to me. I let work drama creep into my time away from work and eat away at what was left of me. I gave up on knitting and reading, and really creating for a while. The only thing I really had to show for a span of time were some nature photographs from mini day trips to go escape for a while. I think somewhere in the mess that was my brain it knew the only way to get me out of my funk was to get me out of the house.

So I got out of the house. Some of my best friends came up to visit. I went on day trips, I took photos, and I worked. For whatever reason, possibly because some of the troubles are slowly being resolved, things are getting better. I have someone in my life who is constantly reminding me not to lose sight of my goals, and that it is always worth working toward the things that you find important.

What's Out There: Wooly Mastadon

And so in the past week I have made an effort to get back into the small things I love to do, the creative things that keep me going. I started designing some knitwear and brainstormed some big ideas. These big ideas reminded me that I still someday want to be a graphic designer at a knitwear magazine, or something like that. I want to move on and do the things I love for a living. And I have to work toward that, not give up, if I want to accomplish it.

Life isn’t always happy, it isn’t the perfectly edited photo posted to Instagram or the short witty post to Facebook. It isn’t the properly edited blog post filtered to make your life look perfect. Life has ups and downs, and sometimes the downs feel impossible to handle. It is possible, it will get better. You just have to hold onto what matters.

Hold onto what matters…it keeps you going when nothing else will.

I’ll be back, with projects, hopefully very soon. Thanks for listening.

~Stay Inspired

 

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A Multitude of Opinions

Splitstone: Wooly Mastadon

When it comes to Fridays, I normally try to post something showing that I have actually done something throughout the week. I aim to share something inspirational that will fuel your weekend of creativity. Yet, sometimes that doesn’t always happen. This week seems to be one of those weeks. I have been busy, but mostly at work. I have been knitting, but I shared my projects with you this week already. It feels like it has all been done. But the truth is, it hasn’t all been done. I am still creating, still working on new projects, and plodding on old ones. I know the feeling that podcasters have when they say that the episode is going to be short, and that’s okay. Life can and will happen and it should.

This week was hectic, but also good. My mother celebrated a birthday, one that almost a year ago we weren’t sure she would even be able to celebrate. I knit quite a bit on my Splitstone, and don’t want to put it down. I am scheming for more letterpress projects. I have been able to spin a bit more. I have truly been enjoying music. There have been positive and good parts of this week to far outweigh the bad. And that is all that needs to happen. Hope your weekend is a good one.

~Stay Inspired

This is Life

This is Life in Flora: Wooly Mastadon

Perhaps a strange title but a true statement of fact. This is indeed life. I am breathing, I am living, I exist. Deep, I know, but such is the state of things. I’m writing this after a day of work, a walk with the dog and my camera, some knitting tossed all over my desk, music playing, and the sound of my family watering plants outside. A strange mix perhaps, but a comforting one in the chaos that is life. I have no idea what I’m doing, I’m muddling through life like the next person. But for now, I thought I’d share some images of life lately, through plants. I love photography and taking my small camera with me on my walks with my pooch has proven to be the best decision I have made in a long time. It has gotten me looking at things through a different filter again, and whats more important is that I want to create. I want to knit, I want to draw/write/make. I even signed up for a letterpress work day. I feel ready to go. Photography is one outlet that I enjoy when I want to express more than just the urge to create, when I want to share part of my essence.

This is Life in Flora: Wooly Mastadon

With that, I leave you with my images. My pride. Life right now. Vibrant, essential, radiant.

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~Stay Inspired

Feeling Thankful

New Growth: Wooly Mastadon

As this week progressed I realized that I wouldn’t be able to post what I had planned. Thus, look forward to some fun reviews in the coming weeks. Until then I just thought I’d stop in and share some of my recent feelings, mostly of being thankful. Last week when I got my schedule for my part-time job, I had a bit of a start, first because I thought I was fired when I ddin’t see my name on the usual place on the schedule, and second when I realized I had gotten what added up to a promotion within my department. It is a small thing, but when you are cashiering at a grocery store (right out of college), are still in your probation period with that store, and they promote you, it feels good. I’m only moving from being a basic cashier to working at the service counter, but it has quite a bit of responsibility attached to it, including supervision over the other cashiers and how the front end of the store is run. I have to say, I am actually enjoying my job now.

Yet, there is a part of me that does not want to admit that. I am a graphic designer and a college grad, and I am supposed to have a high-standing job with a design firm by now, or started my own business, or have gone to grad school, or… All of societies expectations have been pushing down on me, telling me I’m not doing the right thing, that I should be doing more; mainly, that I am a failure because I am not enjoying a cushy job in my field of study. But all of these feelings have been weighing on me as of late. I had not been entirely happy with my part-time job. I haven’t had a ton of design work, my internship has been on and off, and my fiber has been highs and lows. This week, with an unexpected boost from my part-time job, I am starting to rethink things.

The world and society should not dictate what I want to do with my life. Maybe I enjoy my part-time job and the people I work with. Maybe I like having the freedom to take on varying kinds of freelance work in different fields. I am not sitting idle waiting to do something or find a job. I have these things, and they are not a failure, but a start to life.

Mainly, I should be thankful. I shouldn’t always be worrying about what other people think, of how society views me. Instead I should be thankful that I have been given the chance to do more at my part-time job. I should feel thankful that I actually enjoy this promotion. I should be thankful that I am still able to do design work and fiber work. I should be thankful that I am healthy and able to do all these things. I should be thankful. It is important to stop, every so often, and realize what you have is a blessing. Perhaps you are not following the standard path. Perhaps you are not where you thought you would be. But you’re somewhere, and just that statement should make you feel thankful. It has been a long week, and I am tired from all the running around, but it has been a good week, almost an amazing week because of a small thing that doesn’t have anything to do with my college degree.┬áSometimes blessings come in strange packages.

~Stay Inspired